Things here have been tough. Ben is stressed to the max. I believe he thinks that if it was just him, he would not be letting anyone down. He is not sure we are doing the right thing. He's gonna let me know tomorrow if we should continue our relationship. He wanted to think on it and make a good decision. If it were me there is only one decision. To stay and work on things. But I am not Ben and he does not think that way. I only wish I could sway his decisoin but he stands quite firmly on his own ground and takes pride in making decisions on his own. I'm scared to death, I don't want to lose him and I am not sure he feels the same way. He said if we can't survive this problem than how are we ever going to survive anything bigger. I know exactly how, we survive this problem. We don't run at the first sign of stormy waters. The storms will come and go, but just like Michigan. We have more days without rain than we do with. And the storms make everything alive, Why can't relationships be just like lawns. The start out with barely any roots, they slowly plant themselves, they need storms to make them grow, and every once in awhile they need some maintenance just to keep them looking good. That seems simple enought to me. So with this said. I need your prayers! I need them bad. I have been praying all day, I just hope its enough. I'm scared and miserable right now. Please help me Lord!